When I was young I loved to swim. One day I went to the beach with my family and decided swim even though the sea was troublous. I don't have to say that I drowned, right? Since that day I am scared of water. The months that followed that day, I couldn't even go inside a tub without freaking out. If only I had listened to my mother and hadn't go swimming, I would still enjoy swimming.
A few years ago I started to drink, and I used to drink a lot. I wasn't addicted but I really liked it. In 2010 one cousin of mine died of leukemia, she was only 16. I got really depressed and angry with everyone, everything, so I began to drink twice as much as I used to. From all that alcohol all I could get as a reward was liver failing. If only I hadn't been so immature, I wouldn't had suffered so mush. Now I'm OK, but I can't dink or eat anything that may damage my liver (bye bye my dear caffeine ).
There are so many things that I wish I had done it differently but you know what? How cares?!?! Just look how many times I wrote the word "I"! I'm only thinking about how different my past could had been but if anything was different I wouldn't be who I am now, and I really like who I am now. :)
People should stop thinking about the unreal and impossibles things, and start facing the reality.
Here one of mt favorite songs that kind of say what I just wrote.
Kissus
Amy
Yes dear sister, I remember that difficult time that we had to face when Lilian passed away...=o(
ReplyDeleteBut when I my bad memories about what i had done wrong come into my mind, I remeber what Rafiki says in the movie "The Lion King":
"Yes, the past can hurt. But the I see it, you can either run from it, or lear from it.".
And remember, whenever you need someone to talk, I'll be right at your side; always.
You have really great brother!! Touching comment(T_T)
ReplyDeleteAnyway, it's sad that you can't swim...actually I couldn't swim and was afraid of sea because of the same reason as you did. I almost drowned when I was 6. However, when I traveled to Hawaii about 15years later, I happened to meet turtles at Waikiki beach. Next year, I started to do scubadiving and now, you know I love sea and turtles! haha(^-^)
And also about alcohol, I drunk too much in my teens,and I lost my memory a lot. sorry, I was much less serious than you..just drunk for fun(-.-)
I'm happy now, too! and I think what I am now is made by what I was. Life is great, right?